If I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden

It's been a while since i blogged about this person, i guess it's just time to get my feelings off my chest once more,

well i saw him for the first time in ages today, it might have only been for a lesson but, urrgh, it was great! we were stood next to each other in the doorway and to be that close to him felt amazing, i might have been expressionless on the outside but inside i just felt 110%! he is as cute as the last time i saw him.. if not more :X

He moved up a set with me, which i'm both please and a little dissapointed about, like i'm please cause i can see him and maybe hopefully move a bit closer and talk! but also a little dissapointed cause it spoils mine one of ma "sistaaas" plans ;) also he has a few more mates in there so it's gonna be harder.

I did miss him the over the holidays but not as much as i thought i would, we chatted a couple of times over the holidays, i love getting that rush of emotion when i talk to him, he's so nice to me and i do hope maybe it can progress before we leave high school...

In all seriousness i do love him (1 year and 4 months :X) and as much as i have tried i can't move on but that is ok now "Love is not a waste of time" i really wish we could be together because everytime i see him or talk to him i'm just knocked off my feet, he makes me feel so special and i've never felt this way before, about anyone, i've never wanted anything more, and i wish i had him, i going to try my best with him while i still can to make sure i don't sit there at the end of it all and think "What if?"

Forgiveness

I don’t know if I continue, even today, always liking myself. But what I learned to do many years ago was to forgive myself. It is very important for every human being to forgive herself or himself because if you live, you will make mistakes- it is inevitable. But once you do and you see the mistake, then you forgive yourself and say, ‘well, if I’d known better I’d have done better,’ that’s all. So you say to people who you think you may have injured, ‘I’m sorry,’ and then you say to yourself, ‘I’m sorry.’ If we all hold on to the mistake, we can’t see our own glory in the mirror because we have the mistake between our faces and the mirror; we can’t see what we’re capable of being. You can ask forgiveness of others, but in the end the real forgiveness is in one’s own self. I think that young men and women are so caught by the way they see themselves. Now mind you. When a larger society sees them as unattractive, as threats, as too black or too white or too poor or too fat or too thin or too sexual or too asexual, that’s rough. But you can overcome that. The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself. If we don’t have that we never grow, we never learn, and sure as hell we should never teach.”

Questions From Tumblr (Stolen from Danielle :X)

1. Three things I want to say to three different people.
1. i've told you my feelings, what more can i say except.. i love you, i wish i had the courage to say it in real life not behind a computer screen, you're amazing inside and out, and i'm so glad i've gotten to know you, it kills me we can't be together, but i know it isn't your fault. I'm trying to move on and i know this isn't just effecting me, i always wonder what goes on in your head and i always wonder how this effects you? I sit here spending my time thinking, dreaming what my life would be with you in it, while your probably out there living your life, with your girlfriend, not spareing me a second thought... but I've been wrong before,and i hope i am with that last statement, and i just want you to know, you're amazing, you've been so amazing to me and i am very grateful for how you have treated and watched out for me, i've never met any guy like you, and i wish, so much that we could be together.... but there's nothing more golden than friendship <3

2. I'm sorta saying this to a group of people, i wish we could all settle our differences and just be our little family again, i hate this split and i wish things could have been as they were, i don't like the atmosphere now, and it sucks really! i love you all and i really don't like what this has become, i wish people would just learn to live and forget, and so we can just enjoy each others company again <3

3. i don't have a 3rd person... i think i have said all i wanted to.


2. One of my insecurities.
Spots/Blackheads haha i tend to get a lot and i don't like it

3. What turns me on.
i tend to prefer guys with dark hair, i've gone off blonde! they of course need to look good, i don't tend to judge just on clothes (or chinos ;))

4. One of my bad habits.i tend to speak my mind, the bitchy comments just fly out, woops!
5. Who I wish I could be.
Me, Myself and I, i'm totally happy with who i am right now... i just with i had a guy who loves the me, i love x

6. Where I want to be right now.
Aruba <3 or the Maldives <3 i really want to go there one day!

7. The last thing I ate.
Kfc = healthy bitch <3

8. Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately.
J.. 'woops :X' Liam Payne, if i think celebrities!
Not listening to music, but the last song i listened to = Kimbra ~ Cameo Lover

10. The last time I cried and why.
I actually can't remember the last time i cried, i don't tend to do it much, only when it all gets too much!


11. Something I’m excited about.
Leaving school for the summer, i've had enough of that place <3

12. 5 things I like about myself and 5 things I dislike about myself.
Likes: 1)  My personality!. 2)  How far i have come x 3)  My hair colour hahah! 4) I think i am quite smart :X 5) How i was Born This Way!!


Dislikes: 1) I think i am too optimistic for my own good 2) My inability to move on 3) i think i am weak  4) impatient :L and also i think i can be quite rude


13. Three things I want right now.
1. A boyfriend please, where can i buy one of those?? i've waited 15 years, good times come to those who wait though? someone who loves me for who i am, and the bad things i think about myself which will be the things he loves the most <3
2. To pass my spanish speaking coming up!
3. A Tennis Rackett :X Wimbledon always gets me in the mood for it :L

9. What song I’m currently listening to.

A-Z Of Me!

I Need A Break From My Deep-Heart Felt Moments I Post On Here!

Age: 15 (19th April)

Bed size: Single!

Chore you hate: Most: Washing up! touching other peoples eaten food is disgusting! also   dusting because it makes me sneeze a lot

Dogs: I had a labrabor named Woody, that was years ago!

Essentials to start your day: Will Power, and the feeling that today will be a good day, after finding the strengh to wake up the rest of the morning is a piece of cake compared.

Favourite colour: Light Blue!  

Gold or silver: Gold!

Height: I'm tall! i think i'm nearly 6 foot but i haven't measured for a while

Instruments I can play: I can play Rhythm is a Dancer on Keyboard ;) i also played the Saxaphone until i threw up at one of my lessons... never showing my face again!

Job title: Student!

Kids: None yet, I don't know how many or which gender i would prefer yet

Live: West Yorkshire

Mums name: Samantha, but we call her Sam

Nicknames: Anything containing a mean girl quote,

Pet peeves: Bone cracking, XOXOXO talk , People who think they are better than others

Quote from a movie: "Don't Dream It... Be It"

Right or left: Left

Siblings: (7 Brothers) Ziggy, Finley, Jorge, Marley, Chris, Ben, Gavin and One sister Amy, thank god we don't all live together!

Time you wake up: Alarm set for 7:00am wake up usually 7:20! 

Underwear: Yes?

Vegetables you dislike: Leeks, Tomato 

What makes you run late: Lazyness

X-rays you've had done: None

Yummy food you can make: I can't bake... but i make a mean cake! you know the ones in packets with the cake mix included!

Zoo animals: Penguins, Anything CUTE! not monkeys they really annoy me -.-

 

Joe ;D x

Horizons

I've done a lot of thinking lately, of as always i need to 'blog' it out, and of course from my other blogs there is this guy that has been a really big part of my life for a year now, i mean 80% of my thoughts have been him, a mention of his name gives a warm and comforting shiver down my spine, whenever i think of him, it can just lighten me up, when i see him i just get butterflies instantly, him borrowing my calculator was the highlight of my day, he even stand up to his friends if they say anything to me, you don't get many of those guys around...he just means so much to me.. I don't even go out with him! he has a girlfriend so what am i doing to myself??

This is what i've had to think about recently, i mean a year loving someone who isn't yours? that isn't a healthy to do, i've tried to move on in the past but the pain of trying to do it was so unbearable, like how could i just stop loving this guy i look up to and have a lot of respect for! but... realistically i know we will never be together, he isn't gay, he loves his girlfriend, and i have been a bitch to her and it isn't fair for me to be like that, i'm sure she is a very nice person,, heh she must be if she has him and i don't ;) ...

What is there for me on the horizon?? it hurts so much having to go through this, i mean i have pretty much moved on from the guy that meant everything to me for a whole year.. i think i'm going to leave the boy book on the shelf and focus on things like my studies, they seem like the most important thing right now, i will just have to adapt to not having those feelings there :( of course i will have a special place still in my heart for him, i can't just forget those feelings, i gained a friendship out of this and that is so much more than what i expected.. sure it didn't go the way i hoped... but does anything?

Petition! Stop The "Kill The Gays" Ugandan Act!

http://www.avaaz.org/en/uganda_stop_homophobia_petition_2/?copy

Please take 10 seconds out of your time to help save hundreds of gay Ugandans from recieveing the death penalty just for expressing who they are, it's sickening that even in this day and age us gays still face this kind of discrimination. It would mean a lot to me if you did this <3

NO H8 <3

With 1000 Sweet Kisses, I'll Cover You

urrgh, i always come on here to spill out my feelings, blogging just seems to me such a deep thing almost an escape from the real world where you can just empty yourself of the feelings that eat you alive, it's been a big help for me defiantly. Pretty much all of my blogs have been heart felt where i just go for it, i have a LOT on my plate and i need this to help me go on! Of course blogging isn't all i have, i have the most amazing people in my life! like seriously if you met them you would be jealous.


Unfortunately for you this is another of the blogs where i babble on about how things are going wrong in my life, but everyone has this, i feel like i have the whole world on my shoulders and that i have a lot to deal with, but i know there are others that are totally worse off than me! i can't imagine what it's like for them because i can pretty much only just get through my own problems!


A Recurring theme in my blogs are men, well one man in particular and i have said at least 1000 times before, he is amazing! and we haven't spoken for like 3 weeks but the other day i went through his maths paper with him and honestly that made my day, probably even my week, even walking down the corridor to be in the same lesson with him gives me butterflies, when he smiles at me it's so hard not to just burst out into a little school girl giggle, i remember one time i was handing out glue and i gave some to him and i went bright red and he laughed :') times like that just put a massive smile on my face! <3

I know it isn't healthy to love a guy who realistically (as much as i hate to say it) i will probably will not go out with, and i tell myself... NO we will!! and some may call me stupid but no i have to disagree hope is a very dangerous thing to lose as someone once said  "We can live a week without food, days without water but only a minute without hope" i can only dream how amazing my life would be if i shared it with him. I've has millions of these visions of us being together and it sucks the reality of the situation, i must live in this dream world!


I don't know where to go from this, i love him too much to move on and i know i should, i know but i can't, I've tried but it isn't happening at the moment, but i am happy with this, before i was really depressed that i wasn't strong enough to move on but now my attitude is to enjoy the experience of being in love even though it gets really hard at times, before i was sitting through looking at all the posts him and his girlfriend have sent to each other, and i knew, i was telling myself not to because i would get upset but i did it anyway, and it hurt but... there is nothing i can do I'm just gonna go as i am and see if anything comes out of this, i really hope it does it would make my life if it did but we will see,


if we do end up together, then with a 1000 sweet kisses, I'll cover him :P

Born This Way

First of all, i LOVE this song and i love Lady Gaga she is just an inspiration with all the charity work does and just her as a person! I really like all her songs and she is just one of my favourite artists! <3

Now back to the song, the lyrics are just so inspiring and true, no matter what you are you are a superstar and i wish more people would be proud of what they are and not hide in the background, i used to be like that and i MUCH prefer strutting ma stuff ;D and being the fabulous gay i am, when before i was too scared to cross my legs! "There’s nothing wrong with loving who you are, cause he made you perfect babe <3"

It's true you were Born This Way and instead of being ashamed of it, EMBRACE IT! :D
"Don't be drag, just be a queen
whether you're broke or evergreen
you’re black, white, beige, chola descent
you’re Lebanese, you're orient

whether life's disabilities
Left you outcast, bullied or teased
Rejoice and love yourself today"

That is just so true, like that’s what you need to just Rejoice and love yourself, people seem to hate the fact people love themselves and honestly i think I’m an amazing person, i don’t think there is anything wrong with loving yourself! Everyone should do that! Like just be proud of who you are, it doesn’t make you a bad person to love yourself!

"No matter gay, straight or bi
Lesbian, transgendered life
I'm on the right track, baby
I was born to survive"
Of course this bit needs to go here ;) we should all be equal no matter who you are attracted to, we can't help it because we were "Born This Way" i am personally proud of myself for coming this far with myself because now i am so proud of who i am and i just love living! I haven't been happier, believe me once you embrace and rejoice in who you are life becomes a whole lot better, and just forget the haters! Let them hate and be insecure! because of course it is better to be hated for what you are than loved, loved, loved for what you're not! <3

Should All Minorities Be Treated The Same?

This has been on my mind for a while, i was on this site and it was the day where we are meant to wear purple as a remembrance to gay teenagers who committed suicide because of being bullied and on this particular site people of course supported the idea whereas others were like "why should gays get a day?" "fat people are bullied aswell" "they didn't have to commit suicide"

Do you know what i say to that?? B*******t! lets take the example of fat people, yes people do get bullied for there weight but you know what? you can CHANGE! if you don't want to be bullied anymore don't sit in the corner stuffing your face that won't get you anywhere! go out there and running on a treadmill or something and change your life.

Gay people can't do that, they are bullied and abused for what they are, they can't change who they are because it isn't a choice you bitches out there may think it is but we can't choose to be gay, I'm gay myself and I've experienced bullying all my life, everyday i get it, it's almost a treat! when there is a day i don't get called a "gay freak" "gay cunt" "faggot" or getting told to go die, dealing with being gay is hard enough, coming out having all these feelings, where is your fat you can change

don't go all "BUT SOMEONE MIGHT HAVE AN ILLNESS THAT MAKES THEM FAT"  yeah that's like 5% of the fat population kty... maybe we should have a special day for people that have a big nose who get bullied! or maybe people that have no teeth who get bullied, because they obviously feel the same as a gay person who gets abuse day in day out, YEAH RIGHT!

Show a bit of respect for the gay teenagers (there F'ing kids for gods sake) and there families who have gone through this ordeal, and if you're sat here reading this and your 'fat' go out there and change your life, stop making people feel sorry for you, and be a bit more respectful.

Chasing Pavements

should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements even if they lead nowhere?...

it's a question i've had to keep asking me recently, i mean after liking a guy who isn't gay and has a girlfriend for a year you need a wake up slap. I'm in a tough time and i'm stuck on the fence right now, i can honestly say i don't know what to do..

Why does there have to be boundries? why do Gay/Straight/Bi exist, why can't anyone love anyone no matter what gender, it annoys me so much that i can't be with this amazing, truly amazing guy (i can't even think of a word to describe him) who cares for me, who stands up for me, who treats me right, all because he isn't gay that pretty much the only reason, it isn't fair :/

I'm only at high school many of you would say "get over yourself" your too young for love, or "how do you even know your gay" and maybe your right, maybe i'm too young to be going to this but i disagree. I wish i didnt have to deal with this, but being loved up for a year, A YEAR! thats a really long time to be going after someone..

Should i give up? probably i should, i made a friend through this and for me that is enough, i am so happy with that because i haven't lost him and he has told me some deep things and i've told him some deep things.. or should i just keep on chasing pavements? probably not because i know this wont lead anywhere but i still like him anyway, i can't help who i fall in love with, theres only so much i can say on a blog but i really want him, i've never wanted anything more, i'm lonely and i want him to be mine,  even if they lead nowhere.. again the probably wont lead anywhere

as usual i just blog my feelings down, i'm going on holiday soon so i'm sure that will help clear my head, but i'm just a mess right now and i hate, i really hate telling people this, the reality of my situation, i'm not a strong person i can't move on.. i will probably be sat here next year writing a second anniversary on how i cant be strong enough to let go,

i might seem pretty down but i have to keep my head up and i will go far, i have him as a FRIEND :D and that is amazing! i know "i didnt ask for the life i was given, but i was given it nonetheless and with it i'm doing my best!" i'm glad i have him to talk to, HIm of all people!

your pretty confused reading this one paragraph i'm a depressed bitch then another i'm jumping for joy, but thats what my life is like at the moment, i even blogged more than once this month! ikr? well nearly ;) big stuff... i guess thats it for now, there is so much more but there are things you just dont post here, anyone could be reading!

Whats On My Mind The Most, Is On My Mind Everyday

Listen (play while reading)
him.... as i'm sure for most of you out there 'he' is on your mind... the guy you like maybe? the guy you lost?? or are you one of those people lucky enough to say 'the guy you have'  the guy many other people would fight and go to any lenghs to call there own, the guy people dream about and wish on a star for, or are you the person who sits back too scared to make a move too scared to say anything, too afraid to get hurt, or the person who gets up, tries day in day out to get somewhere with the person you love, fight for the feeling that one day he will be yours even if it seems highly unlikely, or the person who sits there and cries that you will never have him, never be able to call him your own and watches him with his girlfriend thinking 'i'm not as pretty as her'  'she is amazing'  'why can't i be like her' ..... me you ask?? 

i'd say i'm a bit of all three.... at the begining i sat on the fence watching him from affar, of course i was having a hard time just coming out as gay to people i didn't have time for those other feelings, untill i was thrown into the front seat when my '''friend''' told him how i felt.. not just him.. at least 20 other people in my class (lets not dwell into that story too much) even though he knew i liked him i sat on the fence... for 9 months  my ass must have been sore...

i then go onto the second kind of person, thanks to some courage and advice from a friend i wrote my feelings and plucked up the courage to send them to him, i don't know where i found this courage from when before i was too scared to look at him or to say hello to him, i am very happy to say i got the most amazing reply and i will remember what he said for the rest of my life.. i felt amazing and glad i did it

That brings me into the third person, we know where we stand and i want to be with him more than anything in the world, i have never felt this way before, i see him everyday with his girlfriend licking his face off in front of me you may think it's cruel... i agree but no i don't sit there and cry no i don't say 'she is so pretty' 'he will never choose me over her' whats the point of crying, i still fight for him even though there might only be a minute percentage of hope and maybe he will never choose me but i can still try and have hope because hope is a very dangerous thing to lose.

maybe there is a chance he will be like me and will be with me one day, maybe just maybe... but what can i do?? i can try my best and if i fail i guess i will sit there feeling like no man will want me and belive me i have been there but i will get back on my two feet and try again or think no.. no joe  it's time to move on and in time i guess i will have to accept that and move on, i feel like i am on a balance now, i could just give it all up now and go loving someone else, or carry on the way i am going, i'm happy and the support from the people that care about me keeps me going.....

i love him and i am not giving up if there is hope (even the tinyest bit of it) why leave it and move on?? don't, it might seem silly of me to have loved a guy for more or less a year a guy who isnt gay (as of yet) and a guy that has a girlfriend (as of yet) thats what i say to myself everyday when he looks at me or smiles at me it can turn a rubbish day where everything has gone wrong too an amazing day where i feel on top of the world, i can say that yes there is a chance we can be together, have you ever had that guy in your life?? are you in the same boat as me?? take some advice, just don't give up! if you fail you can always live with the fact that you tried and you just didnt walk away from what you loved, i know it sucks and some days the emotional pain is too great, it hurts inside but we fight through it and we WILL get what we want in the end, if you fight for it you will get your masterpiece

while writing this i was watching Dreamgirls (which is why i put the song on at the begining, i know how creative!)   "the time has come for my dreams to be heard" "they will not be pushed aside and turned"   that says it all, dreams are ment to come true of course, don't stand there and let your dreams be pushed aside and turned away, i'm trying my best with my guy and i'm not giving up yet, i really feel this could go somewhere.. and of course if it doesn't i will find someone, just like anyone reading this will and just like anyone in the world, there is someone for everybody out there!   Dreams play a big part in our lives and if you fight they WILL wont 'maybe' come true!

"this is gunna turn out to be a work of art. but the artist usually tweaks things till it's perfect, so a little waiting is a good sign. a sign that somewhere down the line, you'll get your master piece"

"Listen to the song in your heart"

I'm done here, i've poured my heart out into this blog and said what i needed to say, i know what to do for myself, i know what choices i've made and how things will go, maybe you should think and choose to be the person that says yes and actually tries to make things better for yourself and who doesn't sit there and cry and who thinks there not good enough..

- But now i've gotta find my own.. my own

now enjoy the rest of the song <3

London Fashion Week (2011)

Unfortinatly i can't see the show yet! I would love to when i'm a bit older, i decided to share some of my favourite designs from this years show :)

I love that 'old' designs are coming back in fashion, this outfit shows 1930's - 1940's vintage clothing which shows sophistication and elegance, it makes the wearer look neat and smart. The black and white theme goes amazingly and it just looks expensive and classy, i think it's beautiful, a reminder of those post war time days.

Usually when i see green i turn away, but i was suprised by this design shown on Day 1 of the show, i love how it just flows giving a sence of freedom, the green blends with the black and the hair colour matches perfectly, if this design was worn when going out the person wearing it would definatly be noticed for a good reason, it's a fun dress and the colour makes it unique, in a good way!

Oh my gosh! i love flowy dresses, i love this dress the colours work amazing together and it almost gives off an oriental theme or high class the model works it and makes it looks fierce, they are proud of what they are wearing, strutting down a street in New York in this would get you noticed by everyone, you would feel empowered wearing it.

I am a foooool for this Gold/brown colour it creates a feeling of warmth which reminds you of snuggling up inside on a crisp snowy night with the roasting fire on, the jackett is just fabulous and really helps enchance the outfit underneath, the boots are a very nice colour, almost like toffee! they dont show too much skin which as good and doesn't distract us from the design, the handbag wouldnt be my choice but it works!

I love this, i really like the purple and the black mix and the fur handbag, a nice dark colour to show the crisp autumn feel, i don't think this would be worn at day as a normal outfit, i feel it is more of an going out dress and would definatly be on the what to wear list!

This caught my eye straight away! i love this kind of sculptured pattern, my only fault is it takes to much attention from the person wearing the dress, it isn't my favourite of the show but i think it deserves a mention!

Honestly, i wouldn't see anyone hitting the town in this, there are a lot of different coloured fabrics just scattered around the outfit, giving off almost a tribal theme the models face can't be seen as some sort of mask is covering it which i don't think is a good thing, we want to see the model confident and comfortable in the outfit they are wearing

And finally i thought i would finish on a bit of colour! this colour i think is really nice the dress overall gives me an arabian, indian sort of theme again it is elegant and a woman would feel classes and gentle in this, i really love the belt and think the pattern on it is really stunning and enhances the dress, the colours combine gracefully, the woman wearing this would be a expensive, glamorous person who goes to balls and sips champagne.


Thank you for reading my second blog, i enjoyed looking through this years gallery :)

All We Need To Survive Is One Person Who Truly Loves Us

well where do i start?? hello my names Joe! i am currently 14 and taking my first baby steps into the big wide world. A big interest of mine is Journalism and that is something i would like to do in later life.

My life at the moment... is amazing i feel very very lucky and a year or two ago i never dreamed i would be saying it! I have the best friends ever who support me immensely, every lunch we have so much fun and just laugh! they are the reason i enjoy school and without them i don't know what i would do! They are all so pretty and need boyfriends ASAP!! :L

urrgh i can't continue without saying what they mean to me ;D

Abi - "your a mannnnn stealerrrrr" but seriously you are like one of the funniest people i have ever met :L your sooo good at drawing and very creative! and you have a very very good taste in men..back off though ;)

Bernie - we only met this year and i can already say your one of my bestfriends! your always so happy and cheeky! i love hearing your little 'ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh' and 'bubbles' ;)  i really hope you get the guy you like! your made for each other ;D

Danielle - you are just amazing! you have a very big talent for making people feel better and sorting out there problems, i don't know where i would be without your advice but i know i wouldn't be in any good :L thanks for saving my skin on many a occasion! i can't say one thing bad about you!!

Emily - Always smiling always happy, your fierce and i definatly wouldn't want to be in an argument with you :L i love seeing you beaming face everyday!

Ellie - There isn't anyone else like you! your so unique and you don't care what anyone thinks about you, i look up to you and wish i could be as strong as you, your funny and i don't know how you come up with half the stuff that comes out of your mouth xx :L

Heatherr - We're stupid in maths togetherr ;) yourrr so cute and make me giggle :L i like how you ramble on about the Wanted and i have no idea what your on about!

Sophia - like the smartest person i've seen.... most of the time ;) i hardly see you in a bad mood and you will always be there for any of us if we need help!


MUSIC
I am a bit of a geek when it comes to music :L i'm not so much into the band of today and like the old 70's/80's kind of music... but i will make an expection for One Direction ;)

I LOVE the music from glee!
and i love Florence and the Machine her music is different, catchy and unique!

i also like music from Madonna, Cyndi Lauper, Gloria Gaynor and i am a big fan of musicals! not into all the rappy stuff ewwwww no! :L


TV SHOWS
Big Brother (R.I.P) The Apprentice, Waterloo Road, LOST, Project Runway, Friends, Any reality shows really!



- I do like travelling and that is one of the things i will do while i am still young and crazy! i like to visit other places for the weather and to have a good time but also to look how cultures differ from each other and a look into history of a foreign place. We have a massive world and i want to see as much of it as possible untill i settle down.

I am gay and being a gay 14 year old is a hard life, but i lurrrrrrrrve it! coming out was a very hard thing to do and when i did i learnt there is nothing to worry about my family and my friends are very supportive and treat me no different i really couldn't do it without all those people! Of course i get crap off other people but i have learnt to ignore and brush them off my sholder and continue to strut down the corridor ;) I am worried what the future will hold.. getting married? having children? but i'm only 14 i don't need to worry about the future! i need to enjoy what i have got and even though "i did not ask for the life i was given i was given it nonetheless and with it i am doing my best!"

And to finish my blog! "All we need to survive is one person who truly loves us" we return to the title, i have learned in my short life to grab oppurtunities by both hands don't regret not doing what you could have done! love hurts but break through and come out strong even if you failed. I am very lucky to have this life and i don't know what i have done to deserve it. I am interested to see what will happen in these next few years, it will be one hell of a ride ;)

peace out ;D!